So Emersyn went back to the doctor's this morning to see if the medicine was actually working since, if anything, she's more miserable than she was before the medicine... Yeah, they said the ear infection is gone (but to still finish the antibotic like normal), and even the fluid in her other ear was cleared up. Wonderful husband and father that he is, Chris didn't really bother to ask what could possibly be waking Emersyn up from a dead sleep in the middle of the night and cause her to cry/scream like a banchee... or what could possibly have caused the drastic switch in behavior and basically her entire personality, making a very happy and smily child to be miserable and crying just about all the time. Yeah, that doesn't matter because someone is just flat out convinced that, not only am I not a good enough mother to make Emersyn not scream and cry basically the entire time she's around me much less know when something's off (hence finding the fluid in her ear, this ear infection, the last ear infection, the first ear infection, the wheeze last year that had her using the nebulizer...), but that Emersyn is just a horrible sleeper. Somehow - although don't ask for any ideas why or how - Emersyn went from sleeping about 12-13 hours or more a night without the slightest interruption, to waking up after only about 2 or 3 hours with blood curtling screams. But anyways, that is where we stand now. Woo hoo. This is also after a very short trip to the playground after work/daycare yesterday ended with Emersyn literally screaming and crying big fat tears all the way home. Let me tell you about some of the looks you get when you're pulling a wagon with a 14 month old child wailing like crazy and trying to escape the wagon. I should have known better than to try and make her happy for even a brief moment, but I really miss my smiles and giggles. They are beyond few and far between these days... probably because I'm such a good Mommy - right? Probably. So I am fully open to any ideas or suggestions on what to do!! Basically, Emersyn's appetite has been pretty non exisitent most "meals" and she's not even drinking as much as before; she goes to sleep great, but wakes up in hysterics 2 or 3 hours later; she'll go back to sleep ok, but usually is incredibly restless the whole time and often cries in her sleep - whether she's in her crib or our bed; her whole temperment has changed and she now is fussy or crying for the majority of the time she's awake; also, she's suddenly become very, very clingy and hates when anybody - me, Chris, my mom or dad - leave her even if she's still with someone else that she totally knows - me, Chris, my mom. Seriously, I am completely out of ideas but something has to give. I just cannot believe that without reason a child can completely change their entire personality almost overnight like that... Eating habits, sleeping habits, personality, independence - or lack thereof - and just overall demeanor can't possibly be that drastic that quick. Seriously any ideas are so greatly appreciated... I'll keep you posted and will hopefully have some good news soon.