It's funny how much you change when you have a baby... It's not your body or your lifestyle. It's not even what you now consider fun or a great night. It's the little things that make you want to cry and scream because you're so lucky. It's the things that make you stop and think "now this is what life is really all about". It's the things that people without kids would find silly but that mean the world to you.
I was almost home today when Chris called. He just simply asked where I was at... When I asked why, he informed that Emersyn parked herself in the dinning room window (it's literally up against the driveway) and wouldn't even let him leave the room. She kept signing "more" and saying "mah" and pointing out the window. Emersyn even kept pushing the dogs away so that she had the prime spot to see when my truck pulled in. It's been a couple days now that she's been waiting in the window when I pull in. Emersyn gets so excited she starts banging on the window and waving with the biggest smile ever. As soon as I get out she now even points to the door and runs over to it as soon as I start walking in that direction. Today though, it wasn't Daddy initiated it was all Emersyn. And that teeny change in the waiting joy made the biggest difference. Emersyn was waiting for me to get to her.
After I got settled, Chris ran out the store real quick and Emersyn and I got to work on the goody bags for daycare's "Friendship Party" tomorrow. Long story short, it's not PC to have a Valentine's Party anymore because the day is linked to Saint Valentine so it's now a "Friendship Party". Anyways, this is the first party that Emersyn's been able to have/attend at daycare since she's now in a toddler room. Since the kids are obviously too young to get the whole Valentine card thing, we decided to do little goody bags for each of her friends and teachers. We have the heart baggies, Hershey hugs & kisses, heart shaped lollipops that are actually approved for 6 months and up, the Disney Cars box of Valentine's that Emersyn picked out and the "I Love You" sign lanugage ducks (surprised?!?!). I had planned on doing the bags quickly by myself after Emersyn went to bed, but figured it wouldn't hurt to try and let her help. I'm so glad I did!
Not only was I totally blown away with my waiting reception when I got home, I was again suprised with Emersyn as she helped do the bags. I gave her one bag and a handful of the hugs/kisses and told her simply to put them in the bag real nice. One by one, very carefully and thoughtfully, Emersyn put each one in the bag while I did the others. The it was on the lollipops. I'll admit I expected them to be broken up after being used as drum sticks by my little musician, but as soon as Emersyn picked one up I explained that those lollipops go in the bags for our friends. Instantly, she pointed to a bag and signed "please". So our assembly "line" began. I'd open a bag and hold it out to her, Emersyn would drop in a lollipop and gently pick up one more. With this success, I thought maybe I'd risk the attachment to the ducks... As soon as she saw the bag Emersyn signed "please" and again I explained that these go in the bags. She nodded and we started our little process again. Emersyn was so excited to be helping that I couldn't even keep up with her. Bird just kept signing "more please" and showing me the duck in her hand waiting to be put into it's bag while I slowly sealed each bag that was finished and attached one of the little cards. Of course, we made a bag for Emersyn so she'll get one with her friends tomorrow at the party too. She doesn't know that though. She proudly made all the bags for her friends and didn't even fuss the littlest bit when I said we were all done. Emersyn gave some of the ducks hugs, but she didn't even try to keep one of them. It was just another handful of little things that made me feel like the luckiest person in the world because I got to see that, I got to help her, I got to be a part of that little event with Emersyn.
I was sure that dinner was going to be a huge mess after all that "good". Emersyn actually said "more" - well, it came out "muah-ar" - when she signed for more and didn't even stop doing it when I made a big deal about it. Yeah, I know I shouldn't but I can't help it; she just surprises me when she busts out with an actual word for the first (or 27th time since my chest still puffs out a little when I hear "taaank-xx"!) and I can't help but tell how good that was. Emersyn said please and thank you without being reminded, she only made small accidental messes instead of actually throwing her plate to tell us she's done... and after all was said and done, Emersyn used her new sign to tell us she wanted to go to bed. We've only started using that sign last night and both only did it once, so it was quite a shock to see Emersyn do the sign so easily this quick.
Again I say it's funny how much changes when you have a child. A really great Thursday night used to be when I won my match at Pool League. It used to going to bed next to Chris after a night at Michael's Pub with our friends. Now, it's seeing your 17 month old daughter waiting in the window for your truck to pull up and how she jumps around, smiling and waving when you step out of the truck. Now, it's the surprise of your baby girl understanding the whole act of putting goody bags together and not even trying to eat or take any of the goodies. Now, it's hearing this squeaky little voice starting to make words and doing them correctly. Now, a really great Thursday night is seeing your child do something way sooner than you could have hoped or expected her too. Not only is the meaning of "a great night" changed, the reality of it is that now your "great night" is better and more meaningful and magical than any night you ever had; it's even greater than you could have imagined. :)